I want to go with a theme here: Revelations! Revelations about myself. I always thought that big moment when I got some clarity would be huge ... you know like you see in the movies. However, I had a big clarifying moment today and it was just a regular conversation with Fawn. It wasn't until afterwards that I realized what had taken place.
I called Fawn for some advice on what else but a guy and there it was the best advice she could have given me...Lauren you have to take care of yourself first, you have to work on yourself first. Best advice ever!
It gave me a whole new sense of empowerment. I went to the gym tonight for the first time EVER because I WANTED TO and NOT because I knew Fawn was going to ask me about it. I went to the gym tonight and had a FANTASTIC workout. I pushed myself harder then I think I probably ever had.
Here is what I learned. In the past, not only have my diets failed because they were not healthy but they were quick fixes. They also failed because I did not have the right intentions behind them. I did them to loose weight fast or my mentality was if I loose weight I will look prettier and then it will all fall into place. I'm learning that that is not right. I'm BEAUTIFUL! I just have to take care of myself first.
Now I know every woman out that can relate to that...at least at some point in their life.